Ever heard this?
"Oh, sorry, I didn't have a chance..."
Just say it like it is, man. I forgot. I didn't make time. It was not high on my list of priorities. I didn't do it not because "I didn't have a chance," but because it wasn't important to me. The truth is SO much more satisfying.
It is not my habit to talk this way, to pass things off with bullshit, and I'm going to put my money where my mouth is, as they say, right now. (This next info could change, of course, cause I'm human and I change my mind like everyone else, but) As of today, I am not going to take the GRE.
I could say a lot of stuff, like:
"Oh, you know, it's not really geared toward my desired field."
"I'm not good at standardized tests."
"I'm just not sure what I want to do right now so I'm gonna wait and see."
No, I'm not going to make excuses. You know why I'm not going to take the GRE? Because I DON'T WANT TO.
But, I think I am going to take the LSAT... again. I get excited about the idea of taking the LSAT. No math!! And as much as I think about grad school and the various things I could go for, it just feels like grasping at shit I don't really care about because there happens to be a school for it. I COULD get really crazy and go to NYU Gallatin with a major in Tap Dancing. But those crazy days are kinda over for me, one, because I've put myself through enough by now, and two, because I really want to be near my family in Florida, an awesome place to be. In previous years I would never have settled for a life in Florida because it was what I had always known. Now I desire a life there because it is beautiful and there is so much to do and honestly, I've been out in the world doing crazy stuff for a while now, and the comfort of that is very desirable.
There are several Law Schools in Florida that I would be happy going to, but if I could get into UF, I would thoroughly enjoy getting reacquainted with the #1 place to live according to the 2007 edition of Cities Ranked and Rated, and one of National Geographic Adventures #1 places to live and play. Starbucks Coffee shops abound. I wanna sit in that van at Satchel's and eat awesome pizza. I want to pop in to Leonardo's for a vegan chocolate chip cookie. I haven't seen a football game in too long. It's time to stand up with 90, 000 of my closest friends and scream at the top of my lungs at a bunch of guys in spandex. And every once in a while, I'd like to have a drink in a dirty bar, of which there are probably a hundred.
I do hope I can get in to law school, somewhere. I'll go to Nova if I have to. Hey, it's on the beach.
But whatever I do... I'm not scared. I have taken that whole "do something that scares you everyday" thing to an extreme, sometimes. What's great is that usually when you do something that is scary, the biggest thing you learn is that it isn't actually scary. I'm open. I'm willing. Even in the midst of a fall I'm ready to jump. Even as my stomach feels in my throat from downward momentum, I'll take the leap. And when it comes down to it, I'm not scared. All that's out there is room to learn and grow. I'm not missing out on that. Not for fear. Not for anything.